Thursday, February 27, 2003
This blogger site is so weird. I really don’t know what to write. Hmm, let’s see…I’m still sick! And I’m just about to leave work. Thank Goodness! My boss just assigned me to two additional task forces. Geez, lucky me. Believe me, that did not make me a happy camper.
I’ve been trying to stay on the positive side with all the changes that have been occurring around me. I know change is absolutely necessary for self-growth, but I don’t need it to come all at once!
I got the shock of my life about a week ago when a stranger revealed that one of my close friends (name and gender will remain undisclosed) had used my name in this really crazy game/scam. I don’t even know what you call it. He/she says it wasn’t a scam at all, but if I didn’t know better, it could have come straight out of the movie “Cruel Intentions”, which ironically is one of his/her favorite movies…
First of all, let me say this…there are always two sides to a story. I know this to be the case in every disagreement or situation. I also know that good people can sometimes feel so stuck in a situation, so stuck that it eventually results in them making stupid mistakes sometimes. It’s human nature. Even as I try to keep an open mind, something doesn’t add up with this current revelation.
He/she claims they never meant to hurt me in this whole process, and I may be inclined to believe him/her. This person was such a sweet friend at one point that I can’t help but think that he/she’s still a good person deep down. It’s just that I gave him/her so many chances to tell me the truth and he/she didn’t. Now he/she says it’s because he/she was surrounded by a lot of people, blah, blah, blah...and that he/she has this mental disorder that no one knows about. Don’t get me wrong, I have compassion for him/her and I truly do want to help him/her if he/she is really sick, but how can you help someone you don’t 100% believe or trust? You really can’t. I mean I will always doubt him/her from this point on. The best thing I can do for the both of us it to just move on from this. I can’t be there for him/her the way he/she needs me to be and I can’t have someone that hurt me like this in my life any longer. It would have been different if he/she told me about his/her illness prior to this situation. I would not have any reason to doubt or mistrust him/her, but now I see every word out of this person’s mouth as a potential lie. This situation has really got me thinking though. How well do you know the people around you…your family, loved ones, friends, etc. Can you ever really trust anyone? And did I confuse you with all this “him/her” and “he/she” shit? Haha.
So how do I move on from here you may ask? Well, that’s a good question. I really don’t know how to. I guess I’m just taking it day by day. It’s going to take me awhile to completely mourn the end of a friendship that was once genuinely valued.
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I’ve been trying to stay on the positive side with all the changes that have been occurring around me. I know change is absolutely necessary for self-growth, but I don’t need it to come all at once!
I got the shock of my life about a week ago when a stranger revealed that one of my close friends (name and gender will remain undisclosed) had used my name in this really crazy game/scam. I don’t even know what you call it. He/she says it wasn’t a scam at all, but if I didn’t know better, it could have come straight out of the movie “Cruel Intentions”, which ironically is one of his/her favorite movies…
First of all, let me say this…there are always two sides to a story. I know this to be the case in every disagreement or situation. I also know that good people can sometimes feel so stuck in a situation, so stuck that it eventually results in them making stupid mistakes sometimes. It’s human nature. Even as I try to keep an open mind, something doesn’t add up with this current revelation.
He/she claims they never meant to hurt me in this whole process, and I may be inclined to believe him/her. This person was such a sweet friend at one point that I can’t help but think that he/she’s still a good person deep down. It’s just that I gave him/her so many chances to tell me the truth and he/she didn’t. Now he/she says it’s because he/she was surrounded by a lot of people, blah, blah, blah...and that he/she has this mental disorder that no one knows about. Don’t get me wrong, I have compassion for him/her and I truly do want to help him/her if he/she is really sick, but how can you help someone you don’t 100% believe or trust? You really can’t. I mean I will always doubt him/her from this point on. The best thing I can do for the both of us it to just move on from this. I can’t be there for him/her the way he/she needs me to be and I can’t have someone that hurt me like this in my life any longer. It would have been different if he/she told me about his/her illness prior to this situation. I would not have any reason to doubt or mistrust him/her, but now I see every word out of this person’s mouth as a potential lie. This situation has really got me thinking though. How well do you know the people around you…your family, loved ones, friends, etc. Can you ever really trust anyone? And did I confuse you with all this “him/her” and “he/she” shit? Haha.
So how do I move on from here you may ask? Well, that’s a good question. I really don’t know how to. I guess I’m just taking it day by day. It’s going to take me awhile to completely mourn the end of a friendship that was once genuinely valued.
Wednesday, February 26, 2003
I am so sleepy right now. The hectic nature of last weekend is finally getting to me...I'm sick! Alright, which one of you gave this to me? There are quite a few possibilities, but I won't name names. Just know you are making me suffer tremendously!!! I have a terrible soar throat. I've also lost my voice. A soar throat is much more unbearable than a headache, but sinus headache is more painful than a soar throat. I just plain hate being sick. I took some medicine that made me drowsy. I don't know how I got here in one piece.
This blogger site kinda makes me feel funny. It's like I'm writing to no one and everyone at the same time. WTF? Okay, can I go to sleep now?
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This blogger site kinda makes me feel funny. It's like I'm writing to no one and everyone at the same time. WTF? Okay, can I go to sleep now?
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
It's 12:57am and I can't sleep! AC stop talking on the phone with me! And where is Francis, Gilbey, and Belle...............been out running for awhile. Damn, we all gotta get some sleep soon or else I'm going to get really cranky!
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Thanks to my bestest buddy AC in the whole world for introducing me to blogger! He's so cool! Check out his blog...
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Monday, February 24, 2003
Gosh, Las Vegas was SO fun. Tiring, but eventful. We never had a minutes rest...always on the go! We went shopping on day 1 at the outlets. Got a few goodies there. Then we rushed off to the Rio to have dinner at Voodoo Lounge. That place had a beautiful view of the city and some tasty Lobster! The ambiance was pretty nice as well. We watched a C*********** show, and well, I was very pleasantly surprised. I highly recommend this show to all girls ages 21 and up!!! A must see at least once in your life...hehe. We hit "Light" at the Bellagio for some dancing and finally got home at 3am. Of course those girls just kept yacking away so we didn't get to sleep until after 4. Sunday we spent the day at Green Valley Resort and had spa treatments! It was relaxing but the girl who did my highlights took forever! So the other girls got to hang out at the lounge while they waited for me. That place was beautiful. We even got to hang out at Randy Gerber's Whiskey Sky Lounge. Very intimate and Modern. Of course we couldn't stay to long, we had a Mamma Mia show to attend at Mandalay Bay. That was my first musical in Las Vegas and it was a cool experience. Had dinner at Rumjungle afterwards and then headed straight to the airport for our flight at 11:59pm. Whew...all that and we didn't gamble even once! Hehe...so glad to be home though =)
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