Thursday, February 27, 2003
This blogger site is so weird. I really don’t know what to write. Hmm, let’s see…I’m still sick! And I’m just about to leave work. Thank Goodness! My boss just assigned me to two additional task forces. Geez, lucky me. Believe me, that did not make me a happy camper.
I’ve been trying to stay on the positive side with all the changes that have been occurring around me. I know change is absolutely necessary for self-growth, but I don’t need it to come all at once!
I got the shock of my life about a week ago when a stranger revealed that one of my close friends (name and gender will remain undisclosed) had used my name in this really crazy game/scam. I don’t even know what you call it. He/she says it wasn’t a scam at all, but if I didn’t know better, it could have come straight out of the movie “Cruel Intentions”, which ironically is one of his/her favorite movies…
First of all, let me say this…there are always two sides to a story. I know this to be the case in every disagreement or situation. I also know that good people can sometimes feel so stuck in a situation, so stuck that it eventually results in them making stupid mistakes sometimes. It’s human nature. Even as I try to keep an open mind, something doesn’t add up with this current revelation.
He/she claims they never meant to hurt me in this whole process, and I may be inclined to believe him/her. This person was such a sweet friend at one point that I can’t help but think that he/she’s still a good person deep down. It’s just that I gave him/her so many chances to tell me the truth and he/she didn’t. Now he/she says it’s because he/she was surrounded by a lot of people, blah, blah, blah...and that he/she has this mental disorder that no one knows about. Don’t get me wrong, I have compassion for him/her and I truly do want to help him/her if he/she is really sick, but how can you help someone you don’t 100% believe or trust? You really can’t. I mean I will always doubt him/her from this point on. The best thing I can do for the both of us it to just move on from this. I can’t be there for him/her the way he/she needs me to be and I can’t have someone that hurt me like this in my life any longer. It would have been different if he/she told me about his/her illness prior to this situation. I would not have any reason to doubt or mistrust him/her, but now I see every word out of this person’s mouth as a potential lie. This situation has really got me thinking though. How well do you know the people around you…your family, loved ones, friends, etc. Can you ever really trust anyone? And did I confuse you with all this “him/her” and “he/she” shit? Haha.
So how do I move on from here you may ask? Well, that’s a good question. I really don’t know how to. I guess I’m just taking it day by day. It’s going to take me awhile to completely mourn the end of a friendship that was once genuinely valued.
I’ve been trying to stay on the positive side with all the changes that have been occurring around me. I know change is absolutely necessary for self-growth, but I don’t need it to come all at once!
I got the shock of my life about a week ago when a stranger revealed that one of my close friends (name and gender will remain undisclosed) had used my name in this really crazy game/scam. I don’t even know what you call it. He/she says it wasn’t a scam at all, but if I didn’t know better, it could have come straight out of the movie “Cruel Intentions”, which ironically is one of his/her favorite movies…
First of all, let me say this…there are always two sides to a story. I know this to be the case in every disagreement or situation. I also know that good people can sometimes feel so stuck in a situation, so stuck that it eventually results in them making stupid mistakes sometimes. It’s human nature. Even as I try to keep an open mind, something doesn’t add up with this current revelation.
He/she claims they never meant to hurt me in this whole process, and I may be inclined to believe him/her. This person was such a sweet friend at one point that I can’t help but think that he/she’s still a good person deep down. It’s just that I gave him/her so many chances to tell me the truth and he/she didn’t. Now he/she says it’s because he/she was surrounded by a lot of people, blah, blah, blah...and that he/she has this mental disorder that no one knows about. Don’t get me wrong, I have compassion for him/her and I truly do want to help him/her if he/she is really sick, but how can you help someone you don’t 100% believe or trust? You really can’t. I mean I will always doubt him/her from this point on. The best thing I can do for the both of us it to just move on from this. I can’t be there for him/her the way he/she needs me to be and I can’t have someone that hurt me like this in my life any longer. It would have been different if he/she told me about his/her illness prior to this situation. I would not have any reason to doubt or mistrust him/her, but now I see every word out of this person’s mouth as a potential lie. This situation has really got me thinking though. How well do you know the people around you…your family, loved ones, friends, etc. Can you ever really trust anyone? And did I confuse you with all this “him/her” and “he/she” shit? Haha.
So how do I move on from here you may ask? Well, that’s a good question. I really don’t know how to. I guess I’m just taking it day by day. It’s going to take me awhile to completely mourn the end of a friendship that was once genuinely valued.
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